Mundane Life

Thoughts From The Diary of a Desperate Man
"Have you noticed that a goodly number of the New Testament commands deal with the mundane? They deal with the dynamics of interpersonal relationships, the importance of hard work, keeping guard over your tongue, etc. The reason is, most of life is mundane."

Two weeks ago I said I want to accomplish many things, but I repeatedly found myself shutting down and not wanting to do the work. I didn't want to study, dance, or work. The answer is not that I was not being firm enough with myself because that is a whole different meaning and topic; it's that I've been struggling to honor God in the mundane. It's impossible for me to find joy or satisfaction in my studies or work when I'm choosing not to have faith-based outlook on them. And it didn't just spill into those area's, it's been spreading in my language and the way I've treated my parents.

Dry spells occur - and I've learned that they are not wrong, they are actually necessary. In the deepest place of loneliness, even there He understands. Even there He can refresh us. He's more than a plural or feelings.
















"Joy and bliss compose approximately five percent of your life, with terror and pain composing approximately five percent more. You spend the remaining ninety percent simply living -- doing dishes, and pulling weeds. The authenticity of your faith will be seen in the part Jesus plays in the in the mundane of your life."

I'm refreshed and renewed. Ready to work. Ready for the mundane.

The Blue Book

I'm beginning to write a book for someone very special to me.
It's called the blue book.
It's actually a journal right now - but I might edit and try to publish it as a book someday.
I think it would inspire a lot of young women trying to stay pure and patient.
I'm excited about it because it's going to challenge and comfort me.
It's definitely a unique and inspiring step in ministry, I think.
So from now on out it's in the making!

I mean, how cool would it be to have a book you started writing at seventeen become an actual book and give it to that person you wrote it for? Gahh! I think that would be one of the neatest gifts ever.

I want this someone to be aware not only through my future actions, but since I was fourteen the profound effect they've had on my life. That I am here for them now, forever, and everyday in-between.

This week has been extremely better.

I've decided that I'm basically drawn to failure.

I feel that I'm contending with it constantly in my own life.

"The larger view always and through all shams, all wickedness,
discovers the Truth that will, in the end, previal, and all things, surely,
inevitably, resistlessly work together for good."
-Frank Norris

Different Pages from the Same Story

This past week I've been really down.

I'm working at being happy - because I realize you have to work at being depressed also, but I'm struggling.

I want to accomplish many things. I want to see potential in myself.. or feel potential.

I want to learn and grow.. but I find myself shutting down and not wanting to do the work.

Am I too hard on myself or am I not firm enough?

I'm really trying to keep my communication open.

I'm striving to be positive and productive with my time.

But these past two weeks.. I just feel as if I've taken a step back.

I don't even know where to pin-point how or where.

I'm just beginning to feel like I'm failing in so many aspects of my life.

Where and when does the balance come in? Will I find it or do I have to make it?

I want to feel and see myself from the correct perspective - God's perspective.

I want to rest this weekend.. and listen.

I've been listening to all the wrong voices.

That's probably why I feel this way.

We learn from trial and error and trial and error. Again and again.

Keep moving. It doesn't matter how slow as long as I'm moving.

"We are in this life together, even when one moves
without the other. Different pages from the same story.

This aching is familiar... it's something I remember.

We can't touch without feeling. Can't heal without healing.

Only the young could fall so hard, could be so careless
and ignore the scars. So we will move out of the way this time, making room for each other, one without the other.

We are broken, but we are moving still.

A thousand different ways."

-Erin Taylor