The Choreographers Opinion

What does it mean when God isn't pulling you away from something...

but you also don't feel Him pulling you to it?

I have little doubt that God has different plans than me just being a dancer.

Bigger Plans.

He does.

I'm just striving to not spend time running away to realize what I'm running toward.

It's okay if I never get to experience the stage professionally. But it's such a burning desire for me to share and satisfy my physical capacity as well as my emotional. I love the work that goes into it. But, anything can happen. I believe in mystery, and miracles. I just know I have to be working for something because what we do here on earth echoes in eternity.

Yesterday I had a discussion with my mom about what I've done in the studio's had echoed so much into my life.

I put my trust in my choreographer, as a person who won't put me out there if I am not going to be able to handle it or look bad, because it's a reflection on them, and they want the best. So I have to decide every rehearsal that I will trust them, and listen to them only. It keeps me from having to account on other people. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. But if you ask ten people, you get ten different opinions. I decide to trust them because their standards are very high and they have become my standards. I choose not to listen or look at the face of another teacher watching the dance -- who hates it and has to put in their dumbing-down opinions. I respect the fact of the original choreographer work, I choose to respect their vision of what they are trying to have interpreted through our bodies. The maker of the dance always sees the bigger picture - they always see the little things that we don't catch at first. But that's why they push. They know we can get those little pieces of perfection that make the simplest movement have power behind it. And it hurts if you listen to the wrong person.

I just always think, "Well, I thought it was good, I did my best," or "This wasn't so good, I have to work more on that." It keeps me from going crazy. I don't believe you can be an honest performer and a spectator at the same time. You have to choose who you listen to carefully. It takes different eyes to be a spectator.

All of that echoes into my personal life. God sees the bigger picture. He has each step planned out and He strives for the perfection - and it's softer with Him. He won't give me more than I can handle and leave a spotlight on me with nothing for me to show. My life is a reflection on Him. So, I'll listen to Him.